I am BLESSED

At this time every year since I was born, is when the Christmas decorations, the lights, and of course the tree comes out. This year is different. We are not getting a tree, we don't have a place of our own to hang the lights or decorate, a living room to put a tree in, or even some spare cash to buy some presents, but I have never felt so BLESSED.
As I watch TV or see adds in magazines about Christmas shopping and decorations, goodies, and gifts, I fell humble. That even though we won't be able to afford much of anything this Christmas, I feel that I already have everything I could possibly need or want right here. My family.
My only wish is for a place to live by the end of the month and good wishes for the new year.
I Love my little family. I feel sad because for the first time, idk if we can get Alex anything from our own pockets, but I know that Christmas isn't all about gifts and she'll get some from other family members. I just feel with the little we do have, is enough. I also found more meaning this December, in little things. We might not be able to go and do the stuff we want, like shop and go to Disneyland like we talked about months ago, but i am finding other things to do that are just as satisfying.
All in all, I am truly Blessed to have the things I do have, because the truth is so many people are in a worse position than me. God bless!

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When will things get better?

Well, we didn't get the apartment. So, we're still looking. I hope we find something asap. But I think we'll have to wait til the 1st of January. I really wanted to be in our own place for Christmas, but oh well. It's been a tough month already and it's only the 9th! Just alot of drama and feeling sorry for myself. I just never thought I'd ever be in this position, you know? I'm sure we all find ourselves in situations where we think that very thing!
I just try to find the positive and I tell myself, "maybe it's just not god's plan for us." Which hurts like hell, but sometimes you gotta believe that. When Nick came home and told me the bad news, I told him to please take Alex out for awhile, so I could be alone. When that door shut, I just cried, as loud as I could. We have been through so much, from the top and down to the bottom. I just get so upset, like I'm sure many people do, to know that your a good person and yet always have problems. Idk, I just hope and pray that things will start looking up! I am so thankful for what we do have and that we have eachother!
Well, dinner is almost done, so I gotta go! God Bless!

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Pee Pee In The Potty!!!

Well, we woke up this morning (Alex and me) and we both went to restroom, I had Alex's' potty in there so I thought what the heck, so I took her diaper off, which I could tell she had just gone pee, She sat down for awhile, then her potty played a song! I looked to see if she went and there it was a few drops! LOL! I was proud of her and she got a little excited about the music! So, We did the whole process from there, to flushing it, washing hands, celebrating, to her treat! Hope I got her excited enough to try it again! Pretty Cool if you ask me!

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My life is on hold!

Hey people,
Seems I won't know if we got the apartment til Friday. =( God, I hope we get it. It is our last chance. There is so much going on, we just NEED this apartment. What a mess we've put ourselves in! Nick started his next quarter today, I'm so proud of him! I'm still having a problem with potty training, she will not go in her potty!! She'll get it with time, I'm just ready to change the last diaper! Of course with the excitment of getting a place,(especially since we haven't had our own in over a year) I've been looking for some great stuff for Alex's' new room! I'm thinking the Classic Winnie the Pooh stuff we have in storage is too baby for her! We'll have to wait on it though, maybe her birthday in may....We'll see!
Well, enough boring you with silly thoughts running in my head! Thank you for stopping by! Have a great day!

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Happy December *

Hello,
Things are still up in the air with the apartment, we go tomorrow to do the application part.We ran into some problems and it held us up a few days, so hopefully tomorrow we'll get some good news! I haven't been working on anything, it's been pretty crazy obviously and I've been extremely stressed out, so you can just imagine I'm sure!
We have been through quite a bit, these last few years, It's so time for some good stuff to start happening. So, I'm really hoping we get this place! We have some friends and family praying for us and that is a powerful thing. Whatever happens I'm sure it will happen for a reason. I'll keep you all posted! Thanks for stopping by!

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